I'm having trouble in my life right now and just need some advice. Currently my girlfriend has just left me because I was guarding my heart because I was scared to fall in love again, only to find out that I did love her and wanted to give up everything for her and spend the rest of my life with her. I guess its poetic justice on my part. Now because of this the apartment I just moved into I don't want or even care for anymore. I really want to sell everything I own am just leave, but I don't have the means to. Yes I know this sounds like running away from my problems, but how would you feel if you just lost the one you just lost your heart to to someone else? But here I want to reassure you I am a sensible Human being. I know I will move on, and I can't linger in the pass, and in ways I already have, but just because of our nature together and our chemistry I really believe I could have been truly happy with her. Our love was comfortable. But now its over, and I must move on. On top of all this my mother who I haven't seen in almost 15 years is currently in the hospital dying, and I want to make peace with her, but she is in a coma. To add to this I am about to be fired from my job, plus with the economy the way it is like everyone else I'm broke. And now the cherry to top it off. None of my family, or friends even care. I've been calling people to keep myself busy, and my mind distracted but everyone is either not picking up, has things to do, or lives in another state. I told myself I had to relax today but all that has consisted of was getting wasted, and zoning out, coming to terms, and regret all day. Don't worry, again I am a sensible adult and obied the rule of drinking, so I kept myself safe and other safe too. But now here I am. You know a little into my situation, and I hope you can please give me some good advice. Because right now I'm so tired of just hanging in there.